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REJECTION, ABANDONMENT, SELF PROTECTION
(a few stories)
It all started with rejecting myself. Or truly a form of "self protecting" FOR myself.
When I was abused at 2 years old (fyi not by family members), my body and soul (mind/thoughts, will, and emotions/feelings) decided to cut off all the part of me that would remember this event. It also decided, ON ITS OWN, to eliminate a lot of memory possibilities until I was.... well 19ish years old.
I literally cannot think of one moment when I was a kid under 15. Even now. I have impressions and 'maybes', but no memories.
I had "rejected" myself by not processing and walking through what I had encountered.
Throughout my school I had friends that were mostly acquaintances.. I had a few throughout the years who were close enough that we got together after school. But every single one of them left me to hang out with others and eventually cut me off. It was weird to me, it just confirmed how "uncool" I was, rejected and alone.
Even as an adult and older teen, I had little friends that stuck with me. I was very aware of not doing stupid stuff, scared away from drugs and just didn't "fit" in anywhere.
I wasn't too weird either. Or so I think I was a cheerleader throughout my entire life (little league to graduation) and even became the captain of our team and did competitive cheerleading as a flyer on these teams.
I was kicked out of a church less than a year of coming to know God. It wasn't "christian" of course but it was oh so real and affirming my rejections. The people didn't like who I was acquainted with (an ex-boyfriend of the Pastors' kid) so they asked me not to come back if I stayed friends with him.
***this was the first time where I was taught "rejection is protection" in later days, I saw where they were behaving in some ways that I would not want to be associated with***
My point in sharing some of these is to show REJECTION has a play IN OUR LIVES when we AGREE with it and make it a part of US.
When one has a season of abuse and abandonment, it lures to those who are careless with you as well.
In other words, they will reject and abandon you easier than doing the same to someone who does not have rejection and abandonment in their past and within their IDENTITY.
*this is a spiritual principle* it's like joy, love, hope. When someone carries these well, you can sense it when they walk into the room and you feel a bit more hopeful, joyful or loved.
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